It does feel great to be free. Your post makes me think of the difference of the JW facade, and Dog the Bounty Hunter. He smokes and cusses and doubtless JWs would think he is as bad and crass as it gets and far away from the will of God.
I think he is great. He is himself. He cares passionatly about helping get people off drugs.
I remember one time calling a JW "sister". She was esteemed, pioneering, faithful meeting attendance. Her daughter picked up the phone, layed it down, and went to get her mom. What happened at that point was quite shocking to me. The girl did not get a chance to tell her mom I was on the phone because of the barrage of SCREAMING, cussing, sounds like things being thrown....this went on for at least 15 minutes.
The outside looked pretty good, but I was not immune from that ugliness inside, trying to keep up with meetings and studies cultivated an ugliness inside me. That phone call made me realize I was not alone.